Déjà vu is a well-known phenomenon in which the event we are experiencing seems to have happened before. Its lesser-known cousin is Jamais vu - the feeling of falling out of reality, in which familiar things suddenly seem completely alien to us. The Australian XR artist Ben Joseph Andrews often experiences similar feelings. In his delicate and very personal essay, he explains how this dissociative phenomenon affects his everyday reality and uses the medium of mixed reality to give viewers a glimpse into his world, where even reaching out for a cup of coffee can be an incredibly difficult challenge.